When I put my key in the ignition, my vehicle starts. When I set the alarm on my iPhone, it sounds every weekday at 6AM. When I need a good laugh, memes on Pinterest do the trick. There are just some things in life I can trust in and rely on.
Admittedly, I struggled this week with trusting in far bigger things than my wheels, my alarm, and comic relief. I felt like my classroom management abilities had tanked. I was tense and on-edge over petty things. I felt anxious about my future, was losing faith in the process, and was running critically low on patience.
Fast forward to the scene of me reading my placement letter in the hallway with my grade partners...reading that I was joining the staff at Antonia Middle School...and that I would be teaching Social Studies.
Now that my professional future is certain, I feel confident and excited to think about what's next. I have many questions to be answered soon, but at least in my mind and heart, I have peace.
This makes me feel ashamed of having such a lack of trust in the first place. Every time I lose faith, feel powerless, and hit rock bottom, things turn around and surge back to life. My spirit is renewed, my patience gets refueled, and I trust again. Every. Time. I guess such is life, right?
May this past week of things being unbalanced and difficult remind me of whose refuge I must seek. Every. Day. Life isn't perfect, but His timing and faithfulness are. I am thankful for my new position, and I look forward to the ways in which it will challenge and mature me as a professional.
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